Learning the language of our own mysteries

I want to understand myself at my most rested, relaxed state. I desire to reclaim my dreamier, starry-eyed self. I want to learn the language of my own mysteries. I wish to tune into the deeper, non-linear, subconscious, liminal parts of myself. I want to find more creative, sensual, intuitive, truthful ways to express my experiences. I want to speak for myself.